Don’t know why I’m feeling like this

There isn’t a reason I know that exists

It’s a listlessness and I feel like I’m caged

There’s a terrible calm and a terrible rage.

I keep on looking out windows and looking around

To find what I know can never be found

The nothing that’s missing, the something that’s not

The piece of myself that I think I forgot.

I’m searching for something I never wanted before

I don’t know what it is, or what it is for

But regardless I’m looking and I’ll search til I find

The reason I feel I am losing my mind.